I don't know of anyone else.

I think that's why I can't stop thinking about it. Thinking and reading and writing about it. I don't know anyone else who has been through this. Anyone who can say "you can overcome this. It isn't who you are." anyone who can tell me they understand, that they feel that way too. Anyone who can tell me, from the same place as me, that it's not my fault. That I'm not to blame. That I can let go of the self hate and the guilt and the "I should have"s. I need someone who understands to tell me that and mean it. Maybe then I'll be able to believe it.