i don't even know why i do speech anymore

all it is is a chore. i don't enjoy it anymore. its just another thing that need to do, dont get done, and am behind on - just more that proves that i cant do anything right. it just stresses me out and makes me unhappy. it isnt worth it anymore. i love the idea of speech, but even competing doesnt hold the same draw for me it used to. i need to be done.