I'm not even good at making you happy. I upset you so much. I can see it, the frustration, the annoyance, the look on your face that says shut up, you've done enough. And I can't stand hurting you, because you do so much for me. And so I try to do everything I can to make you happy. I tell you how much I love you and how much you mean to me, I try to make you laugh, I try to let you have fun and do what you want. But it's never enough. I can't take that face away. I can't make things better with a word or a touch like you can for me. I can't figure out what I can surprise you with to make your face light up. I don't know how to make your day better. And I feel like such a failure every time I can't.
The worst part of it is that I can't be there for you. You can't tell me your feelings and confide in me. It makes me feel like I'm actively hurting you, making you keep all that bottled up. I can't stand that I can't be there for you. That I'm not enough. And you know it, too. So why don't you leave?
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