It has been a long time since I've posted

But I don't really know what else to do. Lately I've felt so lonely and abandoned. Maybe it's because I've been off my meds, but I just feel so worthless and unwanted. Especially with tray. I've just felt like he hasn't wanted me around, like I'm not a priority. He doesn't seem to want me around, especially given his fear of me moving anything into his apartment :/ my day to day feelings seem to matter little to him lately, especially wedding stuff :/ I just.....I feel like less of a person and more of a shadow of a person, tied to the person he wishes I was. I feel like I only matter when I'm convenient